About This Website

This site is best viewed with a current (5.x+) web browser and 800x600 or higher screen resolution. It should pretty much work for anyone, although it doesn't look all that great at very low resolutions viewed on small monitors and it won't look good in a browser older than version 5.x (it'll still be readable). Other than that, it should be fine.

This website represents a chapter of my life. I am a survivor of childhood abuse, of mental illness, and of domestic violence. I write partly for myself, but also for other survivors of assault, of abuse, of trauma.

I should note, before I go any further, that the name of this website has nothing to do with the orthodox Xian teaching of a triune deity (and for the record, it also has absolutely nothing to do with The Matrix, a film which didn't come out several years after I started using that name for this site).

In fact, this site is named for the way my life, for some unknown reason, runs in cycles of threes. I don't do it on purpose, and I wouldn't say three is my "lucky" number. It's just a significant number, and seems to be the rhythm of my life. Trinity is a nickname I used in various recovery circles, and that's why this website is called The Trinity Pages.

These pages represent a journey, one from darkness and dysfunction to light and healing. That's the symbolism behind the black to white blocks of color on this site, and for the rainbow/spectrum in the linked circles. At the end of the storm, there is often a rainbow. There certainly has been for me.

When I started this website in 1996, I was very ill, indeed. I was having a major, life-altering breakdown and I was falling apart (I can't find strong enough words to describe that; my personality and mental processes were disintigrating, they really were). The pages had a lot of very personal information then, and they were anonymous. I mostly wrote for the sake of opening up my closet doors and shaking out the skeletons. It was pretty liberating to finally talk "out loud" about the things that had happened to me.

I moved these pages to my personal domain in 1998, when I was ready to publicly talk about my abuse, illness, and recovery. Then, in about the middle of 2000, when I finally felt that I could really close this chapter of my life, I considered taking these pages offline and retiring them to the recesses of my hard drive. I felt like I wanted to put it all behind me, to stop thinking about it, stop talking about it, and stop feeling it.

After some thought, though, I decided that of the three reasons I put these pages online to begin with (for my own healing, to give hope and encouragement to others, and to educate people), two were still ongoing, and once I added a journal, all three were valid. Furthermore, I did have to heal from a good deal of dysfunction, I did survive it, and I'm now living proof that not only is recovery possible, so is having a great life that you love, and so is eventually being able to look back over your shoulder at the difficult and painful journey and knowing that it is in the past.

So these pages remain and will remain indefinitely, although in late 2002 I did a redesign and removed some of the material that was once here because I don't think it's really necessary any more. I probably won't add to the body of the website other than to add or edit the Resources page, but I do keep an ongoing journal of my thoughts and experiences with regard to recovery issues.

I hope this site is of some value to you, the reader. You're the reason I keep this site available.

The following people and organizations have seen fit to bestow their recognition on this website, and I thank them for that.